tenth of forever

i have a clothesline strung up between the posts on my porch, and there's a sheet hung out, going crazy in the wind. baby girl is outside running under it when it blows up in the air, laughing like a maniac. it's the most awesome thing i've ever seen.

tired and happy... stayed up till the wee, wee hours of morning reminiscing with beau about the beginning of us. there's nothing better then lying in the dark, nothing but skin between us, remembering how we started and realizing that things are as amazing now as they were then.

i love my little family. i think i say that a lot. i mean it a lot.

collection of.

my babies will all be home tomorrow.

we're going to make a fire pit in the back yard soon.

i think i'll be able to come out a little ahead on bills next month.

beau's friend just moved to town, and he's great. i've had fun hanging out with the two of them. i'm glad he's here.

tomorrow night, cooking out with the babes.

this weekend, i get to see one of my favorite bands, then spend some time with my good friends jim and garret, then my sister and mom are coming into town and mom will finally get to meet beau. then thing 2 gets to go back with my sister and spend a few days with his cousins.

AND today is my awesome friend michelle's birthday... i am so incredibly lucky to have her in my life. AND it's beau's cousin tiffany's birthday too, she's the big 20! so glad i got to know her and i get to call her family. she's such a neat person.

and scooby is tripping out all over the house.

oh, and i'm very grateful that i have such an amazing man to share my life with. he makes it better every day and i probably don't tell him enough. he and my kids bring me so many smiles... i love my little family, so very much.

every night should sound like this.

shine.

woke up this morning to the sun on my face and the wind blowing through the window.

opened my ears and heard my little guy's voice in the living room.

opened my eyes and saw beau stretched out next to me, smiling in his sleep.

now: meat puppets and waiting on friends to arrive, slow words fighting to be said when all i really want to do is play, but i'll get it done.

the house smells like summer and clean clothes and pine-sol.

i love my life.

tuesday happy.

the sun is shining.

there's a sweet breeze blowing through the house and pink floyd are singing me to the dark side of the moon.

money's rolling easy in; i should have listened to mudhoney when they told me that it would.

little people are tripping through the house on their way to bicycles and pool cues and roaming black puppy dogs they try in vain to call onto the porch.

i tried to think of ways things could be better. i can't come up with anything at all.

nerd love is awesome.

did you know that the first interracial kiss on television took place on star trek?

cool... did you know that elvis costello's real name is declan macmanus?

i did not.

i love sharing nerdiness with you.

just because i can.

one day, i'm going to count how many times i say "i love you" from the time i wake up until i fall asleep. i bet it's a lot.

and yet, millions of adults don't understand.

"you don't be friends with people because of what color they are, you be friends with them because of who they are. but it's best to be friends with people who are nice, not mean."

-my niece, stella, age five.